[Tainojim]

Hey Butter, now please calm down.
You don't want to end up in Juvy and the hell with the spelling crap.
Your just agitated for the moment.
So take a walk in a park or in the wilderness ,where it's quiet. Meditate, take long relaxing breaths, clear your mind of everything. Hey buddy, I was raised in the Manhattan ghetto (New York City), Spanish Harlem).
It stupefied me when the "West Side Story on Broadway and the movie" came out as some sort of musical when my oldest brother was in the Sharks gang and always fighting some Italian kid named Bobby, a Jets gang.
In reality, it was a pitiful.

There was no singing and dancing with finger snapping. I was only 5 years old at the time.
When I was eight, we moved to Brooklyn.

Being a half bred Indian and too light skin, i went through from prejudices from my own people to blacks and whites alike.

So that's when I decided to go back to China town, when I was a teen, my place of birth and learned discipline, and patience from the old Chinese Masters.

Get a drum pad and practice all the rudiments you can until you master them. It's quiet, you can do this anywhere and you won't disturb anyone. May I suggest going to YouTube and look up the Moeller method.

As you get older, you'll learn how to commune with society. Been there, did that.
I'm 57 now, but it would be a shame to let all this crap get to you or you won't make it to be my age with an attitude like that.

Just set your goals, study as hard as you can, be studious.

As my father used to tell me "ANGER IS THE WIND WHICH BLOWS OUT THE LAMP OF THE MIND".
Respect is earned not given, at least cope with it and don't do something stupid that you'll regret later. I know it hurts for the moment, but it will soon past and you will learn from it as you get older.

I tell you this a an elder friend.

I have two sons and taught them by example, not discipline, even though I threatened them with a can of whip ass, I never did.

Focus your anger and funnel it into something productive.

Your friend, Jimi